The first day of school...

Wow, 5th grade. Already? Really? Crazy.

Where did the time go? Am I really that old? Are you really the same little baby girl that I used to kiss your toes and smell your hair and cuddle with like a little dolly? Yes you are but you are a young woman now. Wow. Again, crazy.
We went to the school this morning to drop the girls off for the first day. I went to Darian's class and hung out for a while. Once again I was the youngest mom and the kids were much easier to talk to than the grown ups, but there is no surprise there. That always happens.

Her class this year is 6th, 7th and 8th. She is the only 5th grader but she looks as old as the oldest kids. It works well because she doesn't stand out as much in this group and I think that makes her feel less awkward. We walked by a 4-5 class and she commented on how all of the kids are barely as tall as her shoulder. This new class they are all the same size. She likes that.

As we walked through the hall several kids stopped to tell me I had really cool hair. Darian kept doing that whole, "That's my mom!" thing that she does. She is proud of me. Awwww! But when I tried to hug her goodbye in front of her friends she gave me the stink eye. Oh well, I guess we don't do that in 5th grade. Oops! I know better now.

It was kind of interesting for me to see the little boys this year. This is the first class she has been in where it feels like the boys took as much time getting ready this morning as the girls did. They had little Hot Topic outfits and dyed black hair. Seriously, mini hipsters! It was totally cracking me up!
But don't judge a book by its cover, they open their mouths and they are the same sweet adorable kids as last year, they are just mimicking the clothing style of their favorite bands. Their first love is still Manga and Pop Rock, so I am not worried.

Then there was the 8th grade girl who spent a lot of time pouting and posing and then glancing around to see if anyone noticed. She had her Anarchy patch pinned to the leg of her Banana Republic jeans and kept flipping her long straight hair while trying to look somewhat rebellious putting her feet on the chair and trying to participate in the opening "Introduce Yourself" song game as little as humanly possible. Oh yeah, her hormones have kicked in. No one missed how she lit up when the head to toe mini hipster boy walked in. She looked even less thrilled when he chose to sit next to my daughter. Uh-oh. Danger Will Robinson! Danger! It's a right of passage.

I am interested to see how this year shakes out. I am not afraid, my girl can hold her own, she knows how to deal with boys with crushes and with mean girls. No sweat! She was a little nervous but chatted easily with all of the kids as they came in the room. This will be a good year.

The little things...

The little things I forgot to mention from the last 10 days since my baby came and went.

1- Jon came home with an armful of adorable little trinkets from his travels all over the world including bracelets he bought on a beach in Italy which for some reason sounds so romantic to me. I am wearing them today. He also brought me several adorable magnets to add to my fridge gallery.

2- Jon mailed me beautiful post cards from all over the world. I love them, every one.

3- Had a sushi dinner with Jeannine and her new male friend who is just too adorable for words. We drank the Sake' that Sean brought back from Thailand as a Thank You gift for watching his crazy kitties last winter. We thought about calling Sean & his wife to invite them over and they showed up right after we were talking about him for something else. It was totally random and funny.

4- Participated in *Amie's Cha Cha birthday night which turned into a free Long Winters show at the Chop Suey and a large consumption in alcohol for me and many people telling me, "Wow! I don't know if I have ever seen you this drunk before!" oops. *I gave her a Kiwi with a pink bow tied around it as a gift :-) (inside joke)

5- Sitting backstage at Easy Street on the couch in the greenroom we were told that is the most people they ever had on that couch. Jon and Ken being the only boys on said couch. Go Figure!

6- Kelsea coming home from her summer away. Darian is so thrilled to have her back. She was our Bumbershoot guest. They both got all dressed up in their rock duds. It was super cute!

7- Darian got her first professional foil. Her hair looks so adorable. I got more red put in mine so it is all bright and happy again.

And that is all I can think of that I missed so far. I am sure there is more, but I just can't think of it right now.

Bumbershoot me!

This weekend was very magical for me in a lot of ways. Especially Sunday. We started Sunday off with a sigh of relief when we got the news that Alex was OK. The waiting was really hard. It allows for your imagination to run wild, while you are still trying to hold on to hope. I am so happy this slice of the horror story that has been NOLA these days had a happy ending.

Sunday Bumbershoot was crazy. It was pouring down rain by the time we got there. Jon dropped us off at the gate so I took the kids in the backstage tent and rode out the storm. This was the first Bumbershoot I went to where I never made it to the festival area. We were just praying the rain would stop by the time The Posies played and it did!
We watched the first few songs from the side of the stage and then we parked ourselves off to the back corner. From there we had an awesome view of the crowd. There were easily 2000-2500 people there. It was an amazing show, one of my top 5 favorites so far.
At one point Darian jumped up with her hands in the air and yelled, "Yay! That's my daddy!" So freaking cute!

My list of favorite Posies shows:
1- Anchorage AK at Gigs Oct 19 1995 (Where I met Jon and it was such a great show I actually hopped up on a speaker and danced all go-go style. The first and last time I have EVER done that! It was THAT inspiring! It was one of the last dates on their tour just before AD so they were well rehearsed.)
2- Bumbershoot 2005
3- The Farewell show at The Croc in 1998? They played for like 3 hours, it was amazing!
4- Neumos show in Seattle 2005. Great freaking show, it screamed "WE ARE BACK!"

Later that eve we went over to the Easy Street show which was also pretty inspiring. I think Amie said it best when she pointed out they mostly played different songs than BS so it was sort of like an extended Posies show in one day two venues.

This morning we said our goodbyes or as Jon put it, "It is not goodbye, it is see you later" and it is back to work.

The tickets have been purchased!

I'm going to New York!
Sept 28 - Oct 2

Well, technically I am going to NJ, NY, & MA
For these Posies shows:

09.28.05 Hoboken NJ Maxwell's w/Oranger, The Deathray Davies
09.29.05 New York City NY Bowery Ballroom w/Oranger, The Deathray Davies (JON'S BIRTHDAY!!!)
09.30.05 Northhampton MA Iron Horse w/Oranger, The Deathray Davies
10.01.05 Cambridge MA Middle East w/Oranger, The Deathray Davies - Downstairs

Anyone on here going to any of these?

I spoke too soon...

The gerbil babies did not make it. :-(
Oh well, maybe the next time?
Or maybe it just was not meant to be.

I went to the dentist this morning. never a good way to start the day.

On a happier note:
We went school shopping for Darian over the weekend. She is now wearing teen sizes which we are finding are a LOT more expensive than the children's sizes. We spent over $150 on 3 pairs of jeans that looked like they were well used! I guess that is the style these days. (That comment made me sound old!) Darian also picked up a happy bunny sweatshirt that she is just in love with.
Welcome to the teen years, I look forward to being broke all of the time! :-)

It is so nice having Jon home, even if it is only for a few days...

Why I am SO happy:

1- Jon gets home in 4 hours
2- Kodo just now gave birth to TWO gerbil babies! Yay! Since there are two there is a really good chance they will live! :-)

I am so happy!

But now I know I can't go back...

Severna Park just came up on my I-tunes and it is bringing back all of these silly memories from 1997. Those guys were so much fun to hang out with and their shows were always such a good time. That really was the end of a very magical time in music in this town. They were not the greatest band, but people and the shows were a lot of fun.

Growing up is the death of imagination. Even though I may look like an adult from time to time and even sound like one, never forget that I am really a tiger in sheep's clothing.

AAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaa.........

Do you hear that? I bet you can if you listen really hard.
That is the sound of me screaming in my head.
I am trying to stay awake.
I am trying to be patient.
Waiting for the clock.
Waiting for Saturday.
Waiting for my love to come home.
Waiting for kisses.

Waiting waiting waiting
I am so sick of waiting

Adventures in Homemaking

I have been trying to renovate my bedroom before Jon gets home next weekend. I decided to paint my room purple and put up new blinds and get rid of a lot of the clothes I have collected over the years that I don't wear and get the closet all organized and thinned out. (Right now our closet is packed to the brim because I buy WAY too many clothes. There are things in there I probably have never even taken the tags off of.
So I start with the painting.
Our room is sort of a long rectangle. We have the bed up against the wall with the window and there is just enough room for use to walk up either side of it. It is such a weird shaped room, long and skinny. Jon doesn't like how bright it gets in the daytime as he works a lot of nights and tries to sleep in the daytime. I was hoping new blinds would help prevent him from hanging towels and other makeshift light blockers on my window since he didn't think the pannels I had hanging prevented enough light from coming in. Trust me there is nothing more ghetto looking than towels draped over your windows! I hate it!
I decided I would paint the wall around the window a dark purple with a high gloss finish and the other three walls a super light lavender color. This went OK until I realized I had to do a couple of layers of the high gloss to get it right and by that time I was blistered and tired so I got a little lazy and ended up getting a little on the ceiling Ugh! I bought some paint to correct that and it is looking totally fine now.
After I finished the painting on 3 of the four walls (I still have one light purple wall left to paint) I decided I hated our curtains and I was going to buy some of those pretty bamboo matchstick blinds to fix the lighting issue.
I brought them home last night. I could not locate my power drill anywhere so I had to manually remove the thing that was hanging our old blinds. This resulted in a lot of swearing and owies and these ugly little white squares in the purple paint that I will have to now touch up today. When I finally figure out that I was trying to hang the new blinds backwards, got them unraveled and got them up the right way I marked the wall and planted the brackets.
Did I mention my window is 8 feet long? Yeah, it is huge, I should not have been trying to hang these alone! So I get them up and guess what?!?! I hung them about 2 inches too far to the right so they did not cover 1 inch of the window! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!! So I measured again, removed all of the brackets moved them all over and FINALLY three hours later got them hung up and working! yay! Victory! Or was it?

Last night they looked amazing against the purple. They blocked everything out just right and everything. This morning.... This morning the inside of my room looked like I had nothing hanging on the window. They are about as sheer as the window itself! How did I miss that? I am now considering starting a small bon fire out front this eve when I get home.
Maybe that is why they are called "Matchstick" blinds?

To find some beautiful place to get lost....

This weekend was interesting to say the least. Some of it was a little too slow for where I was in my head and some of it was well... There were moments where I didn't feel married, 31, like someone's mother or anything else that makes me remember to act responsibly.
I was 18 again staying out until 5AM with my girlfriend talking to cute boys and drinking a weird mix of booze from Gatoraid bottles at a party where the cops showed up three times to tell us to quiet down. (My girl was gone for the weekend visiting her grandparents so I had a license to get into a little trouble. )
The only difference was that I am 31 and don't have that strange awkwardness around boys or strangers as I did when I was a kid. It is a combination of being older and wiser and being married so there is no pressure because I am not looking to date any of these people.
I would love to go into great detail about the weekend just so I had it all written down to remember but really it would be so much to write and my hands are sore from painting my bedroom purple yesterday. I have the biggest blisters ever on my right hand right now. So you will just have to be satisfied with this:

The moon was full and we were full of mischief. There is nothing better than having a partner in crime who is in the same mental place when you are feeling that way. Now hopefully we will be able to channel that energy into the band... That is right, I said The Band!

Stay tuned! ;-)

on with it....

I feel like I should go ahead and do my birthday post now that I think I have milked the day for all its worth and it is time to stick a fork in it and call it done.

I must accept the day has come and gone and I am now officially in my thirties, no longer just thirty. I know, "Wha!" right?

Whatever, just don't come crying to me when it happens to you!

We started celebrating my birthday on Thursday eve at Midnight at the Teenage Fanclub show. Great show, if you missed it, you missed out! After the show we went down to the band room. The guys were all very sweet and gracious hosts. They made sure we were all set up with drinks and offered snack and so on. We toasted my birthday as it was now after midnight.
I look forward to maybe seeing them again later this year in Germany when they are on the road with The Posies!

Thursday night was my birthday. Wonderful Licia set up for everyone to meet at Ye Old Spaghetti Factory. loads of my friends showered me with love and many lovely scented gifts. I received a lot of different flavors of lotion and some pretty awesome chocolate. Is that because once you get to be "in your thirties" moisturizer is so much more important? I didn't ask, and I am not complaining. This is the good stuff. Also got a yummy CD that I have been dying to hear. Mmmmm... Great music, yummy lotion and amazing chocolate. That sounds like a good night!

Friday I was at work and I got a Fed Ex package from my darling husband (Who is in Sweden today I think???) He ordered from my favorite gift buying place www.ice.com. I am now the proud owner of my dream bracelet! It is a classic diamond and white gold tennis bracelet. I spent half the day like a crow mesmerized by the sparkle in all different light. What a good man. I can't wait until he gets home so I can properly thank him. He gives the best gifts!

Saturday I treated myself and my friend to pedicures and pampering which was much needed.

Sunday I went shopping. I was compelled to spend all of the money my mom sent me for my birthday. I bought myself some new sunglasses, a classic Luis Vuitton purse and a really cute Coach clutch. (Thus ending all purse purchases for at least 6 months. I think I have an addiction!)
Swung by Nordstrom and picked up some cute fishnet tights to go with my party dresses. It seems I don't have a problem spending my mom's money after all! Shocking I know! I still need to call her and tell her what she bought for me.

Sunday eve we went to Chop Suey for what was called Hipsters and Fags night. It was pretty slow when we first got there but started to pick up. There were $1 drinks so I spent a lot of time trying to get Amie loaded so I could convince her to sing Karaoke for the gong show. I think in an attempt to drink enough, we drank too much and decided to just call it a night without singing. The next time I will be doing my version of the Banana Boat song. I know you all wait with baited breath.

Thus ends my birthday week. I will now continue on with my thirties.

I'll be your fanclub baby!

Licia, Amie and I hit the Teenage Fanclub show last eve. I had drinks. Since I don't normally drink, any amount is too much for me, but I think I may have overdone it. I am still feeling a little wooozy this morning!
The show was pretty great, really crowded, but the band sounded good. We ended up watching the 2nd half of the show in the room next to the show room only because it was so stifling hot and there was really no place to stand. (Unless you wanted to be pressed up against strangers) Oddly enough the sound was fabulous from that room.
Since The Posies are going to be doing some shows with them later this year and they are old mates from back when we were on the list to get in. Jon made me promise to thank to tour manager after the show for setting it up. So after a wonderful pop music show, I went and found the tour manager and he asked if we would be interested in coming down and saying hello to the lads. We said, "But of course!"
We grab our Capillaries friend Michael as well since he had shown some interest in meeting them if the chance arrived.
We went down to the band room. the guys were all very sweet and gracious hosts. They made sure we were all set up with drinks and offered snack and so on. Michael and I spent a good amount of our time down in the band room bending Norman's ear. He was so sweet and super funny.
After a few hours of gabbing and drinking it was time to head off for those of us who had to work early in the morning and for the guys to hit the road as they have to be in CA for a show today!
All I can say is that they are top Notch guys, it was a pleasure hanging out with them and I look forward to maybe seeing them again later this year!

Oh and it is my birthday today.

Do a shout out!

The paper I work for has added a new Friends and Family section to their website. it is free to post shout outs to friends and Pet photos and so on. We have been encouraged to ask our friends to give it a try. If you have a moment and have a lover/friend/pet/fave band/shoe that you would like to give a shout out to, please swing by and do so! The more the better! (And hey! It is free!)
http://classifieds.thestranger.com/seattle/index

So Dooo iiit!

Thank you very much!

I've been having a love affair this week...

With this band called The Elected. Actually I am lovng this song in particular:

~Greetings In Braille~

If my senses fail, stay with me 'til they go
'cause I don't want to be alone.
Greetings in Braille, they'll describe everything,
colors aren't everything.
And if you see me down at the liquor store,
please don't tell my dad.
And if you see my dad down at the liquor store,
don't tell me anything at all.
And the people you brought
are just drainpipes bringing trash to the ground.
And the memories are just picture cards,
one night stands and breakdowns.
And you were cold, tired and old as you'd ever looked that night.
And we were warned, yeah.
We were warned not to stay out too late.
But some things were worth getting in trouble for.
So now that you finally failed
just like you said you would, down to the last detail.

Well, if living's such hell, here's to your dying days.
You won't have to be afraid.
And the heroes you met were just fiction,
yeah, with higher expectations.
And your friends grew up faster than you got successful,
told you to keep it up. Good comes to those who work.
And the stories they told you were true, babe.
Your mom really went crazy.
But that doesn't have to be you.
No.
And I miss Tara and Melissa, Allen and John.
And you'll never have friends like you did when you were young.
But our bodies were pulled away and swept out to the sea
and I'd call and say hi if I thought you'd remember me.
cause some things are worth leaving old memories for.
If my senses fail, stay with me 'til they go
'cause I don't want to be alone.
Greetings in Braille, should describe everything
'cause you can't see anything from here.
From here, you can't see nothing at all.

last days of new beginnings

So tomorrow is my last day of 30. No more 30. Starting Friday I will have to answer "31" when people ask me how old I am.
I read somewhere once that when you die, no matter how old or young you are, you will always appear as 30 if you are ever a ghost. Now I know this is complete Bollocks, but it did make me have a major "What If?" moment. Of all of the ages I could appear to be for the rest of eternity it would so NOT be 30! I would probably have to say I would choose to be the latter half of 18 and beginning of 19. I wasted so much pretty on the louse I was with back then, but alas, had I not been with him, there would be no Darian, so I should just count my blessings.

My mom always says that you should not complain about getting older because it sure beats the alternative. I just thought by now I would know what I wanted to be when I grow up. So far I have concluded that I only really enjoy not working, playing with children and playing guitar. And no I do not want to be an elementary school music teacher! If the position of Rock n Roll Martha Stuart was open, I would be the first to apply!

Maybe I should just start a cult? I hear there is big money in that.

I am going to rock it with my girls at Teenage Fanclub tomorrow for a little early birthday celebration. The Posies are doing some touring with them later in the year so I was able to get the list hookup. Very cool indeed. Shows are so much better when you don't have to pay for them!

Oh and for the record My husband + large quantities of booze + a camera phone =

I have never been more attracted to him!

Peanut RIP

Peanut is dead. I came home and he was only a head. It was very very sad. Hopefully the next litter has more babies. We can't say we didn't try, it just was not meant to be this time.

Baby Watch 2005...

Since there was only one gerbil pup it's life expectancy is not too high. As soon as I posted I left to go to the pet store and buy some replacement milk and a teeeeeny bottle. I tried to suppliment the baby. He wanted only a few drops. Kodo didn't seem to care that I was messing with her baby, probably because I am always picking her up so she is used to my hands in the cage.
So we are hoping that fate favours us and she can feed the baby enough to get him through the next few days. I read that if the baby lives that long it will be easier to suppliment feed him and he will live. We are calling him Peanut. I guess the first 24 hours are the hardest. Send little Peanut good vibes!

Welcome Peanut! We have been waiting for you!

I woke up early this morning but I laid in bed staring at the ceiling for at least two hours before I was finally motivated to move. The cats know when my eyes open. Maybe they have such heightened sense of hearing that they can hear my eyelids as they slam open. How they are in my face meowing within seconds of my reaching consciousness leads me to believe so. Or it is just the predictability of my natural body clock. I have been working the same shift for so many years, I can’t stay asleep past 9AM to save my life, unless of course I have stayed up drinking until 4AM and then maybe I will sleep until 10AM. It is stupid.
I stared and they circled me like little hairy Piranha. They head butted me in the face, tried to burrow under my blankets, stuck their wet noses to the exposed skin parts of my body. They basically did their best to drive me out of bed and into the kitchen since I am the one with an opposable thumb.
Maybe it is my birthday that is getting me down? It is only a few days away, and I am now officially out of the age bracket where you say, “Woohoo I’m turning _ today!” I think I may be entering the age bracket where I start lying about my age, but my little preteen looks like a teen daughter would never allow me to do so, and I refuse to be one of those, “Hey let’s pretend we are sisters!” kind of mom’s even though most days strangers ask if we are anyways. My darling daughter always says, “No, she my Mom!” and draws out the “O” in mom with a tone that can only say, You are an idiot!

OMG! As I am writing this I just noticed some commotion in my gerbil cage! We have a baby! Yay! There is only one though, and what I am reading online is that it’s chances of survival are not so good because mom may not be able to make enough milk.  I guess only time will tell…
We named the baby Peanut. I hope she can make it live!

Wow, what a mood swing that was... I could go back and edit, but decided not to. It is more fun this way.

He is my pretty pretty...

Jon has a new song called Cemetery Song. I love it so much. I listen to it over and over again. It is so sad it just breaks my heart. The guitar is acoustic and pretty and simple and his voice is so sad. It makes me want to cry every time I hear it. It is so frustrating to me that this record is not out yet. I just want to talk to people about it. Out of all three records, I think this one is the best that is coming out this year, it blows the new Posies out of the water, and Big Star has got nothing on it. I'm so proud of him.

There's no wondering where you are now
Your so far now
That you can't get any father away....

There's a red sunset on a movie screen
with every shade of evening in between
This is how you will always be to me so it seems
And in your arms I learned to breath
you brought me up and you let me be
Dared to let me go, to set me free...

pretty pictures...

http://www.jonauer.com/Tour2005.html

Just posted Jon's little tour diary via his cel phone on the website.
Pretty silly stuff. Feel free to check it out! :-)

I plan to keep adding them as I get them.

What's been going on?

Well let me see..

My husband is traveling, so my daughter and I have been spending loads of time being girly and doing girly stuff like Shopping, hanging out and gossiping. It has been a lot of fun. I feel like it is such an important time in her life, and we have been given this great gift of having a really solid relationship. It has been great. We do miss Jon quite a bit though. When we do things like go shopping or go out to eat we always miss him. It is like we forgot to bring him along. In ways I am learning that missing someone is quite similar to mourning them. The first few days of it gave me a panicky feeling because I have dealt with so much loss, but this time I know the lost person is coming home to me again.

Something to do with summer and pheromones or something has caused all of the crazies to find me highly attractive. Earlier this week I had a pimp tell me I was gorgeous and then give me his whole line of yadda yadda before I could escape. I thought he was going to offer me a job!
And then today on the way back from my doctor I was followed down the street by a group of guys going on and on about my hair, my shoes, my booty. They were making a lot of racket and whistling. I suddenly started seeing images from A Clockwork Orange. It made me laugh and a little bit afraid. Listen guys, if you find a girl attractive, following her down the street and yelling at her is not a way to get good attention. However, it is a good way to get pepper sprayed.

Speaking of the doctor, I got my clean bill of health today. I had some drama over the last few months which I was keeping under my hat just because I wanted to suss it all out before I went public with it. I remember when I was a kid and got the Chicken Pox, I didn't feel sick until somebody told me I was. I guess I was afraid the same thing would happen here if I went and told everyone what was going on. So I just went on business as usual until it was all over.
Basically I had a big old chunk of cells removed that were precancerous. There was a minor surgery involved just before our anniversary and a helluva a lot of doctors appointments and testing. I got the pathology results today and the doctor told me that had I gone to see her any later I would have full blown Cancer and I was REALLY lucky I went when I did. What an eye opener that was! She said I have to come in every few months to be checked on, but she said that there is a 95% chance I caught it in time and am "cured".
Funny enough, the only reason I went when I did was to break in my new insurance for my new job, so in essence my job saved my life. How ironic!
So having said that, I would like to tell all of you to go to your regular doctors appointments and get your check ups, don't wait until you are sick because if you do, it may be too late.
Now I am putting it all behind me.
Whew.
All of this really made me take a long look at my life, and I have to say, I am OK with it. Life is good and I am a very lucky girl.

In happier news, I turn 31 next Thursday! What happened to the last year? It all went so fast! I am really proud of the last year and how it turned out, so I don't have any regrets. I can only say it was one of the more eventful years of my life!
I walk away from it older and wiser, but mostly older.

That is all for now. Catch you on the flipside!

One Fantastic Bore...

Darian and I went to see The Fantastic Four. I have been looking forward to it since I saw the preview before Batman Returns. I think Jessica Alba is hot and Julian McMahon from Nip Tuck is hot, and Michael Chiklis from The Shield is just a full on badass (and a little hot) so where did they go wrong? It should have been named the Fantastic Bore.

It reminded me of one of those God-awful Disney Channel original movies. I think The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants was more entertaining and that is so not hot.

Second hand news

I am going to put on my writers cap and update the website for Jon today. He is far away from a computer and traveling so much right now he just would not have time to write, but he checks in with me regularly so I figure the least I can do is pass along some of his road stories so far.

He said Paris was three-showers-a-day hot and muggy, but it was a lot of fun. This was the first show to launch the tour. He said they sold quite a few T-shirts (I guess they have special Euro Posies shirts just for this tour) and the crowd was awesome! They had not practiced in a few weeks so it wasn’t perfect, but it went really well for the first show of a tour.

They played with Cheap Star (The band that Ken has been working with and that Jon is going in the studio with for a week before they leave on the US tour at the end of August.) He said during the show both Jon and Ken joined Cheap Star on stage. They are a band to watch if you are in those parts. Jon played the CD for me of rough mixes and it was pretty cool! Funny story, I guess they were late for sound check because the van was “misplaced” Someone in the crew moved it to a safer area for parking and then got turned around when going back to find it. Eventually it was found and they got started. Sounded like the usual first day jitters type of thing to happen. I thought it was pretty funny!

Day two was in Switzerland. There was trouble finding a phone so I didn’t hear much about this particular show.

Show 3; day 4 they are in Dublin, Ireland. Jon called me after the show a little tipsy, but in good spirits. He said that the drive was like 30 hours in the van and on a ferry. I guess the navigator got lost a few times, which made the drive that much longer, but they made it to the venue no worse for the wear. He said they sold several CDs. The crowd seemed very friendly, even while we were on the phone I could hear people coming up saying “Great show!” He called me on Darius’ cell. I am sure we will be hearing from D when he gets that bill! Those silly boys!

So really, they are all in great spirits! Maybe a little homesick, but having a good time and still working out the bugs that come with the start of any tour. It looks like Ireland for the next few days. I will pass on any more show info as I get it.

Another day another dream..

This one consisted of a not pregnant co-worker finding out she is pregnant and then FF to her having a baby girl. We were having an office baby shower for her after the baby was born (In my dream she came early) It was in the Spring next year. It was a happy dream, and pretty vivid. I am just glad it was not another creepy anxiety dream like I had been having!

Last Night:
Darian and I rented the latest season of Dead Like me that came out on DVD yesterday! I am so happy! It seemed like we waited FOREVER for that to come out! We had a slumber party in my room last eve and watched them until I seriously could no longer keep my eyes open. This morning came early and I was TIRED. Of course my little night owl of a child could have watched the entire season! We made it to the 7th episode, tonight we will watch the rest.

It is such a fun show. We love it! And really, I needed to laugh at/make light of death after the last week. It is fantastic for that!

Welcome to my pity party. (I am getting on my own nerves I swear!)

It is 10 PM where Jon is right now. He is probably just arriving at the club they are playing in Paris and getting ready to play. I have been listening to Songs From the Year of our Demise all day and missing him.

I feel like all of my emotions are boiling right under the surface. I have started to tear up an embarrassing amount of times all day. I am usually a pretty tough cookie, but I think I have reached the line.

My emotional cup runneth over.

I am hoping to work out extra hard at the gym today. Sometimes it helps to physically exhaust myself to the point where the emotional exhaustion doesn't matter so much.

So much has changed, another friend is gone, and I am a million miles away from the one person who's hugs always make me feel safe from it all.

Days like this make it hard not to feel completely tiny and insignificant.

This is horrible news…

My friend Michael has died. I worked with him for years at LizardTech. He was often times my lunch companion and he was my mentor on many things when I was learning the wonderful world of technology. He was a really sweet person. The last time I saw him was at the airport in Chicago in the middle of the night, I was leaving and he was flying in. We chatted for a bit and said our goodbyes. I have not been in touch with him since then. I read this on his band Silkworm’s message board today:

Author: tmidgett
Subject: semi-official word on Michael

Hello all,

First of all, thanks for your thoughts.

Second of all, here is the sum total of what we know right now:

Michael and our friends John Glick and Doug Meis were traveling from Shure to someplace for lunch.

They were behind a car at a light.

A young woman, bent on doing injury to herself, ran into the back of the car at a high rate of speed.

Evidently, all three guys were killed instantly.

I'm sure more details will come out over time. But those are the facts as I understand them presently.

I don't have much else to say. Except, again, thank you, all of you.

Love,

Tim
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Here is the NBC link on the accident

and She was the one trying to kill herself.

Ronrey.... So Ronrey :-(

This officially sucks. I tried to convince him not to go. I even offered to take care of him for the rest of my life if he just quit his job and stayed home. I said I could get a second job at Tasty Freeze and we could live on ice cream and love. He didn’t buy it. (I think because there is no Tasty Freeze in Seattle…)

A few moments ago I heard a horn honk; it was John Roderick in a big old van sitting outside to take my husband away. And like that he was gone. Whisked away to the airport and then on to Paris.

Listen: God or whoever is running this show, you keep him safe, you make this time go quickly and you bring him home to me happy and healthy! I’ve got my eye on you!

Now Darian goes next to visit grandpa for a few weeks. As I type this I am reconsidering letting her go. I don’t think I have ever been in my apartment alone for very long in my whole life! It is too quiet!

The Anti Betty Crocker

OMG This photo made me laugh so hard! I look so crazy in it!

Conversations on and on and on and on and on and on....

I had the worst dream last night. I dreamt that I woke up and found out that one of my friends was dead. Now having lived through this reality one too many times it scared the crap out of me. It was so real. I got the call and another of my friends was just totally loosing it, so I was trying to help them deal and keep it together myself. We were going through their stuff helping sort things out and get clothes for the funeral. It was all so surreal. I could not shake it all day today. It is still just sitting there like a brick on my chest. I will get over it. Not going to say which friend as to not freak anyone out.

The Posies shoot went really really well. We had a lot of fun. After hearing that song about 300 times I probably don’t want to hear it again for a while, but that is just how it goes. The guys were pros and I feel much pain for the small group of guys who had to roll the stage back and forth like 300 times as well. Poor guys.

My friend Craig took some photos here is the link to that: PHOTOS

I think my daughter has a teeny crush on Matt. She spent the whole day looking all doe eyed at him. It was really cute. Every time I turned around she was following him around. He had a dog and he draws comic books really great. He might as well have been made of Anime in her book! It would not be a bad thing if that is the type of guy she likes when she grows up though because Matt is a really, really good person, so that is good. Thank goodness she isn’t gravitating towards the thug types.

Jon and I have been trying to deal with the fact he is leaving tomorrow.  We are flip flopping between sadness and denial. 

Doing my little "I told you so" dance

I just read that Fat Actress was canceled. Haha! I am so happy the good people at Showtime also recognized what a big stinker that series was! That show is so bad it is embarrassing. I felt uncomfortable watching it in the same way I feel uncomfortable watching Tom Cruise doing an interview these days. You just get all squirmy and embarrassed for the people.

OK, time to get dressed for the Posie video! I took the day off work today too! Woohooo!

Man alive, what an odd couple of days.

So we rented Prozac Nation last eve. I was really looking forward to it but it really fell short for me. I don't think Christina Ricci is a very good actress. I used to think she was until I saw her try to step out of her pouty box and show a range of emotion. She did depressed and solemn pretty well, but she didn't do much else. This character was supposed to be experiencing all of the high ups and major downs of depression, CR is more of a blank slate. (And I am not just talking about her five head!)

I almost forgot to mention that Darian and I had a girls night a few nights back and we went to see Sisterhood of The Traveling Pants movie. I was expecting not to like it, but that was fine, she really wanted to see it and it is part of being a parent, sitting through movies you would not ordinarily sit though. It ended up making us both cry.
Jon said it made him cry too, when he heard we were going to see that movie!! (What a comedian.)
I thought it was a very sweet mother daughter flick. I would not suggest it to anyone else though. At least it was better than that Yaya Sisterhood crap of a movie a few years back!

Posies video shoot tomorrow. I am trying to think of the perfect Rock-n-Roll outfit to wear. I was told I could not wear any dark colors because the band are wearing dark colors. So that pretty much rules out over 90% of my wardrobe! I'm trying out a new wine colored sweater today. Who knows.. I'll probably do some major clothes sorting this evening.

It is one of those:

Memememememe...

If you could do anything:

1- Superhero power: It is a toss up between being invisible and being freakishly strong.

2- #1 Place you would visit: Paris (That will be soon though)

3- Celebrity you would date: This is a 3 way tie between Bob Dylan, Colin Farrell & Angelina Jolie

4- Place you would live: A HUGE apartment in NYC

5- Car you would drive: Don't care as long as it is comfy and it runs and gets good gas mileage and is safe

6- Band you would join: SO MANY... CAN'T CHOOSE... pass...

7- Movie you could live in: The Godfather

8- TV Show you could live in: The Sopranos or maybe Entourage?

9- If you could kiss any animated character: Kermit (I know he is a Muppet, but still)

10- Random Fantasy: *sorry- edited for adult content* ;-P

There is a light and it never goes out

Listening to The Smiths this morning.
Almost forgot how much I love this band!
-----------------------------------

Take me out tonight
Where there’s music and there’s people
And they’re young and alive
Driving in your car
I never never want to go home
Because I haven’t got one
Anymore

Take me out tonight
Because I want to see people and i
Want to see life
Driving in your car
Oh, please don’t drop me home
Because it’s not my home, it’s their
Home, and I’m welcome no more

And if a double-decker bus
Crashes into us
To die by your side
Is such a heavenly way to die
And if a ten-ton truck
Kills the both of us
To die by your side
Well, the pleasure - the privilege is mine

Take me out tonight
Take me anywhere, I don’t care
I don’t care, I don’t care
And in the darkened underpass
I thought oh god, my chance has come at last
(but then a strange fear gripped me and i
Just couldn’t ask)

Take me out tonight
Oh, take me anywhere, I don’t care
I don’t care, I don’t care
Driving in your car
I never never want to go home
Because I haven’t got one, da ...
Oh, I haven’t got one

And if a double-decker bus
Crashes into us
To die by your side
Is such a heavenly way to die
And if a ten-ton truck
Kills the both of us
To die by your side
Well, the pleasure - the privilege is mine

Oh, there is a light and it never goes out
There is a light and it never goes out
There is a light and it never goes out.....

One year ago today...

Happy Anniversary baby!

The party was perfect!

We had loads of yummy food stuff and we had many wonderful friends show up. It was supposed to rain, but the day stayed absolutely sunny and beautiful so we got to partake in the fire outside on the patio later which was perfect. Licia has such a great house! She has done so much work on it and it gets even more beautiful every time we go over there.

Photos were taken so I will post them when I get them back.

I felt like there were times when I talked so much I was going to loose my voice, but that is just because I have not been out socializing in a while. There were a few people that I don’t feel like I got to chat with as much as I would have liked to but luckily I will be seeing them tonight at the Canterbury for the going away party. So chatting will happen.

The surprise of the night: Jon gave me a big old box to open in front of everyone. It was super light so I thought it might be lingerie or something. I opened it and it had rose petals and a heart shaped candy box in it. I squeal, “I got chocolate” he says "Open it", so I open the heart box and it contains a little pouch sitting on pretty paper. I open the little pouch and it has a beautiful tennis bracelet that matches my engagement ring and the anniversary band he gave me at Christmas! It is a beautiful white gold band with diamonds and Tanzanite stones in it. (My rings also have diamond and Tanzanite.) We love Tanzanite; it is a precious stone that is actually getting to the point where jewelers will tell you that it will probably be mined out completely in our lifetime. It just doesn’t get the press that diamonds get so they are not as expensive but they are technically more precious.

I was so delighted! What a sweet sweet man!

Here is a photo of it:



Here is the ring I got for Christmas that it goes with:

EXTRA EXTRA!

The Posies will be shooting a video for 'Conversations' this Thursday (the
14th) in Seattle, and they are looking for extras. They will not be able to
pay you, but a hot meal will be provided!

If you fit any of these descriptions (or know someone who does), e-mail a
photo to casting@worthyent.com.

- Asian man and woman, both 40+ yrs old

- Hispanic man, 20-40 yrs old

- African American man, 40+ yrs old

- Two caucasian women 60 + yrs old

I can tell you're the one that I'd bet our lives upon...

(Imagine a very sing song tone here)
"I’m having a partaaay this evening for my anniversary."
Yay! (My REAL anniversary is Monday, but Saturday it is Party time!)
Teehee.

I am on my way out to pick up some booze and nibbles for the big party. I’m so excited! A year. Wow! It went so fast. That is the thing about being happy, time flies by so fast. They say happiness makes your life longer, but I think it makes it feel shorter.
I remember ten years ago when Jon and I first met. He came to visit me for 11 days in Alaska. I remember being so happy and telling myself every day, “I still have # more days before he has to go home, that is a lot of time.” And then in a half of a blink, he had to go. These days I still stop every now and then and look at him and think, “Wow! We really did it, he is here and not going anywhere.”
All I can say is Wow. Life can be pretty cool sometimes.

The ramblings of a rainy Friday...

My heart is sick over the events in London. The people that would do this are monsters who do not value life. Now it is back to waking up and turning on the news with my fingers crossed just to make sure nothing else has happened.

What an undignified way to die. Get blown up on your way to work, or like 9/11, die while at work!
OK, my job is not too bad, I like the people I work with and that counts for a lot, but seriously, I DO NOT want to die at work or in the process of going to work! I waste enough of my life at work thank you very much.
Maybe if I was doing something that was saving lives or saving some portion of the world, or meaningful in any way, but I don't. So if whoever is in charge is listening, I would prefer to die old wrinkly and surrounded by loved ones many many many years from now and NOT AT WORK.
For the record; I intend on celebrating at least my 95th birthday!

This makes it that much harder to say goodbye to my husband as he heads over the pond as well. But like people said after 9-11, the days following attacks there are probably no safer place to be on the planet. So I will think about that when I start getting all Chicken Little about it.

Now that I got that off my chest...

We are still in the midst of planning our 1st anniversary party which is tomorrow! We have decided to go Italian for the party. It seems to be the easiest and since it looks like it will be pissing down rain, grilling will be out of the question. I am going to get a few of those take and bake pizzas and Licia is making some yummy salads and I will be making some sort of Italian dish or another.

Blow Out- I just can't get enough!

As much as I hate to admit this, I will:
I have fallen under the spell of this ridiculous television show on BRAVO called Blow Out. It is a "reality" show depicting the life of salon owner and Egomaniac-secretly-self-loathing-in-the-closet-walking contradiction of a man Jonathan. I HATE this guy, but I think that is why I LOVE this show! I can't stop watching it. I find myself yelling at the screen like a mariners fan during a good season. It is craziness I tell you. Everything that comes out of his mouth is contrived right down to his "Therapist" appointments where he pokes himself in the eyes really hard trying to coax tears all the while his reality therapist leads him through conversations about how he is feeling in a way no licensed, self respecting therapist would.
He has the ego of a CEO of a major corporation (If you have worked for one, you know exactly what I mean) and he stalks around like a peacock. But then he is moved to tears when someone uses his product and says they like it as though he just invented a cure for Cancer.
My favorite Jonathan quote thus far, "Today not even THIS makes me happy!" (referring to looking at himself in the mirror.)

Major props to the ad guy who would not take his shit and probably would have been canned had he not been such a great spoiler for the ego fest on this reality TV. My favorite quote by him, "What, did your beauty school education teach you that?"

Mwahahahaha!

"Let us endeavor to live that when we come
to die even the undertaker will be sorry."
-Mark Twain

I still need a cup of Joe.

Our upstairs neighbors went away for the long weekend so Jon and I have been taking full advantage of their On Demand HBO. We caught up on all of the new Entourage and 6 feet Under. We are quite bummed that they don’t seem to have the new Sopranos on there yet. Oh well. We watched the pilot of The Comeback last night with Lisa Kudrow. Not so great.
I really like ON Demand, but realized it isn’t that worth it when you can rent all of the shows you want to see when they come out. And the reality is it doesn’t have everything you want to see. No L Word, and the movies cost you $3.99 to watch. So it isn’t worth it, but it is fun if you are house-sitting!
Oh and just so everyone knows, in case I didn’t mention it before, Fat Actress is the worse mind numbing pile of dribble on television getting the most hype. I can only imagine it is doing so well because so many vindictive women out there like to see someone who used to be really beautiful making a pig of herself. Kirstie is a funny lady, but this show and it’s one tired joke disappoints me to no end. It is sad really.
Tonight we catch up on Curb Your Enthusiasm which is the show that started this “no script” trend and is the best of the bunch.
I am going and getting my hair done today. My sweet husband surprised me last night and said that I could make an appointment his treat. He said he knew I would love some fresh color for our big anniversary party next week. How sweet is that? Does my boy know me or what?

So we are taking it easy this being our second to last weekend together before he takes off for the rest of the world. It’s gonna be rough, but it is worth it. (At least that is what I keep telling myself.)

Oh, and I almost forgot, we went to see War of The Worlds yesterday! I liked it a lot, there were parts that I swear came straight out of my nightmares though which gave me the willies. There were also parts that made me laugh even though I was the only one laughing in the theatre which is always a little embarrassing. Oh well.
It had a few forgivable plot holes. The only big complaint I have is the cheese ball last minute of the show. I mean come on people!

Rock Widows Wear Red

So there is a possibility that the Posies tour will be extended if certain things fall into place. That means Jon comes home for 11 day in between the first Europe tour and the US tour and then he only comes home 5 days for Christmas before he leaves back to Europe again.
He said he is trying to make sure they will be home by March.*
When he said that last night, I said, "OK. No problem."
But then today, I realized that March was only two months ago and that next March is a long flipping time from now!

I know in the grand scheme of things, everything will be dandy, and we are talking of just bringing Darian along for parts of the Euro winter tours because the airfare is SO cheap as compared to the summer, but there is the problem that she is in school and I get limited vacation time. We will figure it out, it is just sort of settling in, the whole reality of it.

I'm sure it will all be fine and dandy, and when he comes home from this tour we will be able to buy the house we have been wanting to buy, but the idea of the space between now and then when we can't be together is just a little sad. In reality it is a drop in the bucket compared to the rest of our lives together.


*And this is only the Posies, don't even get me started on Big Star and then his solo record tour!

Through this looking glass screen...

I have peered into a distorted world of imagination and perspective that was not available to my forefathers and mothers.

I have become so far removed from verbal communication that I feel like a night out takes a few hours just to warm up and most times too much energy to even bother with. When it comes to conversing with people for pleasure, outside of my little family, and when I am not wearing my worker bee hat, I am out of practice.

I have no cellular phone that tethers me to the world all hours of the day and night. I have an answering machine with a warped tape so I can hear people as they try to reach me through a garbled line, but I do not reach back. I send them text instead.

I had a cell phone but I killed it by letting the battery die and then "misplacing" the adapter that would resuscitate it, twice.
When I am gone, I am unavailable even if this seems irresponsible to some. In reality I am never any place where I could not be reached. I am a creature of comfort and habit that can be reached if just a little thought were put into it. My time is always accounted for and I am rarely alone (as in by myself) I am certain in any form of emergency, I could probably be located.

I do not message instantly because that is only another form of having a conversation, just as fast with mad typing skills and no room for sarcasm. When you have IM on, people have the ability to reach out and tap you on the cyber shoulder when you are anywhere near a keyboard. Then you are faced with either interacting with them or shutting down your IM before you respond which slams a tiny cyber door in their face.

I have friends who voices I have never heard but who lives I feel invested in since I read their journals every day. I get excited for them when they are happy and I get sad for them when they write that they are hurt. We send "vibes" for luck and cyber-hugs for comfort.

What a strange world this is.

~SWOON~

Jon is the sweetest bestest husband in the whole world! I just got my mail here at work and he sent me a smooshy card in the mail even though he is in town.

*Le Sigh*

Can You Hear It?

EVERY KIND OF LIGHT is in stores today! Woohoo! Many congrats my love!
Now everyone go out and get a copy carn it!

I even wore my "I Heart Jon Auer" shirt to work today in celebration!

I had a pretty busy weekend.

Friday
Jon and I went to see Margaret Cho. I had one ticket all day that I finally unloaded and at the last minute someone who was going to go backed out and I had two. Since my original date had already made poker plans I called Jon and shockingly he was interested in going. We made a whole date night ot of it. I got to wear my fabulous dress that I bought in Spain last summer which is actually almost too big at this point! (Yay!) but I just pinned it and paired it with a cute shrug to hide the pins, so nobody was the wiser. I must admit, Margaret Cho was actually funny. I had expected her to be not so funny only because I thought by the last go round her act was getting quite tired, but she had this whole new political act and it was very smart and quite hilarious. The crowd was on fire as well which made it extra fun. There is nothing like sitting in a crowd of booming laughter. It is just good for the soul and as contagious as anything.

Saturday,
we went to see Madagascar which was totally adorable. Jon laughed out loud several times. It has the world's thinnest plot line, but the animation and the characters were just too freaking cute for it to matter a whole bunch. The penguins stole the show for certain!
Then we dined at Denny's (Darian's choice) which actually brought back some fun youthful memories for Jon and I. I would not eat there every day or anything, but now and then it is fun to go back. Loads of adorable super wrinkly couples were there at the time as well. Too cute.

Went to half priced books and bought about 4 books that I have been wanting to read. I already read the first one, was not as good as I had hoped it would be. Oh well. I have higher hopes for the next one and I know enough people who have already read it that I don't think I will be dissapointed.

Sunday,
I did major grocery shopping and laundry. Then we vegged out and watched the boobtube. I had a lot of trouble sleeping last night due to reoccurring dreams, so my tossing and turning kept waking Jon up. Poor guy, he has to record early today, I hope he feels more rested than I do. I think I finally got to sleep around 4AM and then I was just bombarded with vivid images, so it was more exhausting than sleep.

Woke up this AM
late, went to catch the bus which passed me, and then started to walk to work, that is when it started to rain. This all made me laugh really hard and look to the sky and ask, "Really?!?"

'Tis OK though, I am feeling pretty good right now, just kind of tired.

Too spooky for me....

The last three nights I have had dreams about people that I know and love who are no longer alive. Usually I welcome these dreams because in my dreams I forget that they are dead and when I wake up I feel as though I have just had a visit with an old friend.
The unnerving thing about these dreams are not only the frequency but the fact that they are very clear about the fact that they are no longer alive when talking to me in the dreams. This messes with my head.

In other news, all of my animals are acting crazy.

If i believed in voodoo and things of that sort, I would think that something big was about to happen. (I am hoping it was just the gay pride parade making all sorts of unusual noise in the neighborhood yesterday that was tweaking them out.)

When The Lights Go Up

Written by Jon Auer

If you're still here
When the lights go up
I'll know you finally
You finally showed up

And if you think no one sincerely appreciates
Then let me tell you before it gets too late

I never needed you to tell me
All the words you knew to say
And I've been looking
I've been looking for a long time
Waiting for the day

So if you're still here
When the lights go up
I'd like to thank you for the moment you showed up
And if you're still here
When the curtain falls
I'd like to thank you more for being here at all

And as the audience is leaving
Blessed hope that you will stay
For you are more
You are more than I imagined
Waiting for the day


I never needed you to tell me
All the words you knew to say
For you are more
You are more than I imagined
Waiting for the day...

2 weeks and 3 days...

That is how much time before Jon and I celebrate our 1st wedding anniversary. I looked it up and it seems this is paper. I should tell him that money will be dandy as a paper gift! :-)

We are going to throw a party to celebrate and the wheels are now in motion! I am so excited, I love throwing parties! We are going to do it at Licia's place because she has the perfect backyard for it.
I think I am going to order a couple of the Ladro pies since that is the same pie we had at our wedding, and maybe buy a case of the same type of champagne just for the sweet nostalgia of it all.

I wonder if I could get away with wearing my dress again?

KIDDING! (sort of)

Batman Begins

It was exactly what I expected it to be. Nothing revolutionary, but a decent little action movie. Far better than the 2nd X-men movie, but inferior to the 1st. It falls somewhere in between.
The coolest effect of the movie is how they used the camera to make the action sequences seem like the fluttering of bat wings, the downside to this is it physically makes you dizzy after a while. The people I went with all felt a little drunk leaving the theatre due to the swinging camera angles.

The downside; I wish they would have cut the big car chase in the middle down by about 5 minutes. The whole movie was about 10 minutes too long and during that car chase it really started to feel that way.

As expected the movie ends with either a set up for a sequel or a very loose link to the 1st Batman movie starring Jack Nicholson. I am not sure if they are in any way connected, but how they ended it, it left me wondering if they were meant to be.

The best part of the movie experience for me: I saw the preview to the new Fantastic 4 movie which I am looking forward to this summer!

I have a bone to pick!

OK, I have to get this off my chest. Here is a perfect example of what pisses me off about the news. Pretty blonde Coed vanishes in Aruba on a little vacation. I can't turn on the news without hearing about it. I now practically know her life story. She went there to party, got toasty and went home with the wrong men. chances are she is long gone from this world. Now I do not condone what happened to her, and it really is heartbreaking for her family, and I think the amount of coverage is a good thing, but here is where the "rub me the wrong way" part comes in.
My first boyfriend travels to Taiwan to teach English to people, his third day there he vanishes off the face of the earth. It takes me THREE years to hear about it because the only news coverage is in Taiwan, an a year or so later a blurb in the Anchorage Alaska paper! WTF!? Is his life not as important as the blond girl who went out partying? Does he not make a pretty enough poster child on the news? Who knows, if people had got as heavily as involved with this case all around the world as they did with Aruba, maybe at least they would have recovered his remains by now.
Oh and the runaway bride, like SHE needed so much news coverage! Like THAT is a story that I care about.
I read an interview with Angelina Jolie recently and she said something that stood out. She said she had been away in developing countries for three months and not one photographer took pictures there, a place the world is relatively uniformed about the horrors of. Then she goes to NY and tries to take her son on a carousel ride and they can barely wade through the sea of photographers. There is something really wrong with that!
The news is not our friend which I am certain is no surprise to anyone.

BOOM says the sky

I just spoke to my daughter, she is sounding a little blue. Today was her last day of school and it is also her last day at the school she has been attending for the last few years. She has been excited about the new school up until today. I think the reality of the finality of it all just hit her today.
Poor baby.

I had a pretty great work day so far. Still 2 hours to go...

The weather went from sunny to crazy downpour in the last few minutes and I didn't bother to wear a coat! I hope Jon will be able to pick me up! At least we have a Value Village downstairs. Worse case scenario I will just run down there and buy an umbrella or something rain proof.

Woah! We just had major thunder. The windows are actually shaking!

Today is anti-suck day.

It is a beautiful day outside, and I feel happy and sparkley so I have decided to declare this Anti-suck day! If you are having a bad day, you must stop right now! Life is too short and you don't know when it will all be over.
Sorry, but those are your orders. You may resume your bad day tomorrow or never, but until midnight tonight there is no sucking allowed.

teehee.. that was fun. Now on to other things that do sort of suck, but I am going to make an effort to be over them for today.

So my friend Chris had a link on his livejournal Friday that led me to some pretty horrific news. This was my first boyfriend from HS:
http://overseasamericans.tripod.com/overseasamericansintaiwan/id23.html

I eventually broke up with him to date the guy who became Darian's chrome donor, but he was a really sweet guy. Probably a little on the too sweet/naive side in some ways. As teens we planned a trip to Belize together, even bought the tickets, but I backed out at the last minute. He still went and had a grand old time!

I guess they never did find him or his remains. I did some investigating and the two main theories are
A: He was murdered for his passport (I guess in Taiwan they can get $25,000 for an American passport.)
B: He was swept away by the river after cooling off from the hot springs.
His body was never found but his luggage somehow made it's way back to his hostel 10 days after he vanished. His mom still wanders the streets passing out flyers.

So Fred, in your honor I will declare today an anti-suck day. I just hope whatever happened to you, it was quick and painless and you are happy now wherever you are.

It is final,

I am going to purchase a good quality digital camera! Every day I see a photo that will never be taken because I do not have a camera. This morning I saw the sweetest thing that I will probably never see again. There were two crows on a telephone wire canoodling like a couple of love birds. I have never seen crows in a cuddle before.
They were centered on the wire so the only backdrop was a perfect bright blue sky. It was a fantastic image! One crow had it's head bent down cuddled in the others chest while the other crow groomed the bent head. So adorable!
The camera I decided I must have is an EOS Digital Rebel XT camera.

On the subject of small animals; in theory my gerbil should have babies either today or tomorrow. I peeked at them this morning before I left and they were all cuddled in a little stack snoozing away. No labor happening there. Who knows, maybe the wee lad just wasn't mature enough to make gerbil babies on the first go round? She is looking a little fatter. I guess we will just wait and see.

Volunteering at the teen center went wonderfully last night! The kids liked my mashed potatoes. I think I might have made too many, but they turned out surprisingly yummy for the large quantity. (We packed up leftovers for them to serve at lunch today)
I boiled 20#s of spuds with garlic cloves so they had a very light garlic flavor to them. I used a whole bottle of cream and 4 sticks of butter in them so they were creamy goodness. Serious comfort food for sure!
Next month I want to make my 3 bean vegetarian chili. I could make cornbread to go along with it. Mmmmm. This is all making me hungry!
A funny thing that happened was when I showed up it turned out my old friend Dave and his wife were the ones who actually ran the thing. I had no idea! It was a happy surprise, but a surprise none the less.
It is such a great program!

Published by Leonard Cohen, performed by Jeff Buckley (1966-1997)

I heard there was a secret chord
That David played and it pleased the lord
But you don't really care for music, do you
Well it goes like this the fourth, the fifth
The minor fall and the major lift
The baffled king composing hallelujah
Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah ....


Well your faith was strong but you needed proof
You saw her bathing on the roof
Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew you
She tied you to her kitchen chair
She broke your throne and she cut your hair
And from your lips she drew the hallelujah
Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah .... .


Baby I've been here before
I've seen this room and I've walked this floor
I used to live alone before i knew you
I've seen your flag on the marble arch
But love is not a victory march
It's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah
Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah ....


Well there was a time when you let me know
What's really going on below
But now you never show that to me do you
But remember when i moved in you
And the holy dove was moving too
And every breath we drew was hallelujah


Well, maybe there's a god above
But all I've ever learned from love
Was how to shoot somebody who outdrew you
It's not a cry that you hear at night
It's not somebody who's seen the light
It's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah
Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah ....

Yum!

Lend your hands...

So I got word back from the volunteer coordinator for the youth kitchen on Wednesday night. The bummer is that Darian will not be able to volunteer because she is too young, but I am still going to do it. It seems like such a good cause, how could I not do it?
I'm making mashed potatoes to serve 25. I have never made that many potatoes before, but I am sure I can swing it. Anyone have a great gravy recipe that could be easily made in large quantities? I guess you make it at home and then bring it in to be warmed up. It is like a pot luck in ways.

I am working on the possibility of Darian and I volunteering with their other program that works with foster kids and kids with Cancer on art projects that will be displayed at a booth at Bumbershoot.

It's not too late to get on board! Let me know if you are interested!

Michael Jackson Trial

Supposedly they have reached a verdict and it will be announced within the next hour!
Place your bets people!

I predict a not guilty verdict (Even though I think he could not be more guilty)

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Sadly, I was correct. :-(
Not guilty on all accounts.

There were no pillow fights, but it was still glorious!

I had a glorious weekend! (Note to self: I like that word glorious and I do not use it enough.)
Friday: Jon took Darian and I out to a really yummy Italian dinner. We had perfect spaghetti and meatballs and tortellini. I was so sleepy afterwards, I pretty much passed out and had perfect sleep.

Saturday: I woke up and made a birthday cake for my friend Licia. I made a doll cake that was supposed to be Meg from the White Stripes. I even gave her little drum sticks. It was pretty cute. The frosting was a little soft so the design didn't turn out quite like I wanted but it was still cute.
We had her slumber party that eve. We watched Pretty in Pink and made mixed drinks that can only be described as Jamba Juice spiked with Raspberry Vodka. They were really good. Then we had Pina Coladas.
I got the girls to sing a Cure song as it was the only song I know how to play that they know the lyrics to, and then we did facials. Each facial mask was a different color so we were looking pretty freaky for a few hours there. Licia's was the best as it was a jet black peel off mask. It even came off in one piece!

I slept pretty solid, although I did have a big old doggie curling up to me all night. I was on an air mattress and every time I moved she moved which resulted in a lot of noise. I have never been a big dog person, but Licia's dogs are pretty awesome. They have excellent manners and they don't stink, so they are golden in my book!

I would totally have a slumber party again. I almost forgot how much fun they are! Girlfriends are the best when you have the right ones!

Sunday: I got inspired to rearrange our apartment. I did some moving and organizing of our bookshelves which resulted in a nice flow of energy through our little apartment. When I woke up this morning I was checking it out and decided that the new layout really opens it up. I am very happy with how it all turned out. The best part of organizing: you find little treasures that send you on trips down memory lane. I found loads of little love letters from Jon and I to one another. They made me feel all squishy. :-)
I also finally got all of my photo albums on a shelf and organized in chronological order and started to fill up Darian's hope chest with all of the fun wedding keepsakes from our wedding last year so she could maybe use it in her future.

At the end of the night, just as I was about to hit the hay, my friend Holly called to tell me that her boyfriend popped the question! How exciting! She emailed me a picture of the ring this morning! It is so pretty! I am very happy for her. I LOVE weddings! How exciting! Congrats to you my friend!

Moon Under Stars Over Me

Finished the Soprano's last night. Now, I know everyone knows that Adriana dies, because she said so in press junkets last year for that stupid new Joey show she is on. So near the end I was of course expecting this. But when it finally happened. Oy! It was horrible! I keep thinking they will somehow bring her back, but I know that they do not come back. Maybe she will be in some dream sequence next season?

I must admit I don't really like how this season ended. It felt anticlimactic. To me it felt like they ran out of time so they rushed to close things, or else they just got lazy. I have not decided yet. Let me marinate on it for a bit.

In random household happenings:
I heard my garden* is attracting a hummingbird this year! I didn't know they came into the city! My mission this weekend it to buy a hummingbird feeder.
It must be pretty enough for me to be OK with it hanging in my garden, but ugly/cheap enough for me to be OK with it when someone either vandalizes it or steals it. (You would be amazed at the random crap people steal out of my garden*)
I no longer grow sunflowers because whenever they get all cute and little someone always comes by and picks them.
I have a plastic birdbath that I buried the base and covered it in rocks. Even then people have tried to pull it up and take it. Truly ridiculous. I just don't get it.

*My "garden" is a small plot of dirt that is about 8x12 feet under our apartment window. Before I started planting in it a few years back, it was just an ugly patch of dirt where people would often times throw trash. I have put a lot of time and money into making it look pretty, that is why it blows my mind that people would try to ruin that. You don't get a lot of nature in the city, why mess with it when it is there?

If you're bored you're boring.

The new Sopranos came out on DVD this week, so of course my darling husband and I have been having a marathon viewing of them.
God I love that show! It seriously makes me want to pig out on really good Italian food after watching it though. My brother-in-law gave me a really cool Wiseguy cookbook for Christmas, so I may be forced to make up a big Italian spread from the book before we settle in for the season finale. We are on episode #10 right now. I had to work today so I could not stay up any longer to keep going.
I would love to be a mobster if it were not for all of the shooting and stuff.

It hit me last night just how much I am going to miss Jon when he leave to go on tour next month. We only have another month before he goes away for the summer. He says not to worry and the time will go quickly. I am being a tough cookie about it, but it will be hard.
I know, I know, I am being dramatic. I am sure I will enjoy having some time to myself, but I will miss cuddles and DVD watching marathons so much!

This weekend I have major slumber party plans. We are FINALLY going to celebrate our beloved Licia's birthday. It is a little belated because she was out of the country on the actual day, but now we will celebrate!
I am trying to decide if I will wear my beloved Powerpuff Girl PJ's or if I will go buy some new ones for the event. I am also seriously considering some fluffy slippers. Maybe in leopard print?
We are doing a full on slumber party; a bunch of girls, facials, 80's Brat Pack movies, PJ's, blended drinks, maybe even a pillow fight! Oh and most importantly, no boys! :-) I can hardly wait!

It is perfect and sunny out today, so I am finding myself very distracted.
I love this city so much! I walked to work just to take in it's beauty. The people here are wonderful, and the little community is amazing. It really is a big city with a small town feel. I have never met anyone who has been here who hates this city. I don't know that I would want to meet one of those people as I can't imagine they would be at all that interesting.

Well, I suppose I should get back to work.

E-Card!

Aww... my hubby stars in an E-card!
Check it out:
http://www.rykodisc-media.com/theposies/

Happy 11 month wedding anniversary to us!

Jon and I were talking and decided that we want to throw a 1 year anniversary party.
It is so crazy to think we have been married 11 months now! It seems like we just got married.

It is true what they say about the first year, I swear it took the first six months just to get settled in to this whole new life thing. Nothing too dramatic, just trying to figure out where everything goes and who cleans what.

Now I can only describe life as a second honeymoon. We are getting along famously and things are really going quite well. I can't imagine life without him. Married life is a lot better than just cohabitation or dating as far as I am concerned. I have lived with a few boyfriends in the past, and I never had the same sense of togetherness/love as I have now that I am the other half of a married couple. I am sure it has a lot to do with the fact it is with the right person as well. He is completely trustworthy and wonderful. I am often times overcome with a giddy joy knowing that we get to grow old together and experience so many of life's little adventures together.

Sigh..

Back to the party. Not sure if I will do a small dinner party at our place or try to rent out a place or maybe try to convince one of my friends with a bigger place to allow us to host it there. It is the perfect time as it is only days before Jon goes on tour, so it will be an anniversary party as well as a bit of a going away for a while party!

Been looking into restaurants around town as well trying to find a good place. If anyone has any ideas let me know!

I almost considered talking to The Sunset and getting them to let me book a night and doing it there (since that is where we had our reception), but I am thinking it might be fun to do something a little fancier. But who knows!

so many ideas, so little time...

Oh and speaking of anniversaries- 10/19/05 will be 10 years from the day we first met! crazy!

Due Date

So I have been reading more about gerbils and have decided that Kodo's Due date would be June 17th. I am typing it in here so I don't forget what my guess is. I already have potential homes for up to 6 of them, 4 for sure, so as long as she has an even number of babies we should be good! :-)

SECOND TIME AROUND - The Posies

You
You’re a beauty to behold
You’re the reason why I’m still alive
You dove on in and took right hold

I
Would’ve drown when I let go
I was looking for the answer to a question
Finally now I know

First star in the sky - don’t lose that feeling
I’m ready to stay the second time around

You
You’re the summer I lived through
You’re the days of April I was dead to life
Instead I am renewed

First star in the sky - don’t lose that feeling
I’m ready to stay the second time around

I’ll make it clear and keep you mine
It’s starting to shine this light of life so crystalline

See,
You’re the reason I believe
In the story yet to be and truth be told
Until the final scene

First star in the sky - don’t lose that feeling
I’m ready to stay the second time around
The second time around
The second time around

Colonel Mustard: How many husbands have you had?
Mrs. White: Mine, or other women’s?

blog-o-rama

I must admit that ever since I discovered www.technorati.com I have been doing really random searches and lurking in all kinds of Blogs.

I love to get a glimpse into other peoples thoughts. I love my livejournal.com journal because it is connected to all of my friends and I always know what to expect. But my Blog is more out there, disconnected and random so I never know who I will meet. Pretty cool I think.

Very excited that the new Posies record will be out in a few weeks! I could not be more proud of them. I am so happy that my husband is in a band with such a great group of guys. They just feel like family. I am so excited for all of them!
Now they have new management which I think will help take them to the next level. It is the folks who manage the band The Killers and I swear I hear those guys everywhere right now! If they could do even a smidgen of that for this record, it could mean really good things. I am sitting on my hands trying not to jinx it by getting too excited!

I stopped by the bakery this morning to get doughnuts to bring to the office on my way to work today and I must admit I left empty handed. I stood there for a full four minutes looking at them all glazed and shiny in their case. I knew they were fresh, and probably tasted heavenly, but something about them just struck me as disgusting. I could not bring myself to touch them or buy them. I walked out empty handed. I dig this new aversion to sugar, must have something to do with the drugs I am on messing with my insulin. But hey, in the past I would have found it hard to pass up a doughnut, now I can't even consider buying one!

Michelle- 1
Doughnuts- 0

Conversations Lyrics

CONVERSATIONS - The Posies

On the way back from yesterday, give yourself a break
And say hello to the now you know
Now you know (let it go) today
There’s no prison left inside to guard you through

Conversations on and on
Conversations on and on
Conversations on and on
I can tell you’re the one that I’d bet our lives upon

Will it be such a mystery if you leave without a clue?
Don’t let it end on this note again
Just one word shy of true
And we’ll talk more than those behind closed doors will ever know

Conversations on and on
Conversations on and on
Conversations on and on
From a side of my mind that you helped to help me find

Conversations on and on
Conversations on and on
Conversations on and on
Is it clear, can you tell?
Can you feel me just as well?

And we’ll talk more than those behind closed doors will ever know
They’ll never know

Conversations on and on
Conversations on and on
Conversations on and on
I can tell you’re the one that I’d bet our lives upon


Conversations on and on
Conversations on and on
Conversations on and on
Is it clear?
Can you hear me?
Can you feel me just as well?
Conversations on and on
Conversations on and on
Conversations on and on

Hitchcock would be proud...

I just had a bird land on my head and crawl over to my shoulder.

I am not kidding.
It was in front of the Value Village downstairs from the office. I was coming back from the gym and all of a sudden I feel something grabbing my hair and the back of my head. I thought for a second someone had grabbed me, but quickly I saw that it was a very pretty green and red bird as it squawked in my ear and climbed on to my shoulder.

I hear a woman screaming at him behind me "Get over here, Turkey, get over here!" (No kidding, the bird's name was TURKEY!)

It was some kind of medium sized green and red parrot. It stayed on me for a second or two and then flew back to the lady.
I just kept walking and came back to the office.

How bizarre.

It's Poetry baby..

As many of you know I wrote lyrics for a band called Dear John Letters another lifetime ago. For many people that seemed like a weird arrangement. One person wrote the words, the other wrote the song to those words. To a lot of writers that seemed backwards as a good majority of musicians write words to fit melodies already written. Our songs were written to the tune of my poetry. This gave them their own special sound.

These days I don't so much write for anyone but myself and I find a lot of joy in reading lyrics of amazing songs by talented songwriters. I could care less what genre a song lives or if the songwriter or band is considered one of the "cool kids". I like what I like and I hold on tight to those things that resonate within me. It is as simple as that.
I love songs that I don't know anything about, only what they mean to me. It is like they were written for me. I think a successful writer writes something that makes the listener feel as though they visited your head and heart and they know all of your secrets and your deepest most guarded feelings. Sometimes it actually ruins a song to me when I read an interview where the writer tells what the song was about word for word. I need the vague breakdown or none at all. I don't want my opinion colored by their experience. Call me selfish, I don't care.

Some of my favorite lyrics off the top of my head:

In My Life- The Beatles
Hallelujah- Jeff Buckley
Cemetery Song- Jon Auer
Tiny Vessels- Death cab for Cutie
Atlanta (I think that is what it is called) -Capillaries
Jack The Lion- Harvey Danger
Positively 4th street- Bob Dylan
Cold Booded Old Times- Smog
Above you Below me- Badley Drawn Boy
Hurt a Fly- Built To Spill
I May Hate You Sometimes- The Posies
Mental- Eels
Between the Bars- Elliot Smith
I Want You- Elvis Costello
Think (Let Tomorrow Be) - Sebadoh
Legendary & Puzzle- Lou Barlow
Kathy's Song- Simon & Garfunkel
Somebody- Depeche Mode
Love Song- the Cure
Afraid of Women- Dar Williams
Baby Bitch- Ween
and the list goes on and on and on.....

Where are you now?

Death is such an odd thing.
This week is the first anniversary of loosing my friend Gib. He was such a sweet guy, it is strange for me to think he no longer exists on this planet.
Jon and I got to talking about the big questions last night like "What do you think happens next?"
We come from such different places on this subject. He feels that this is all there is, and that is why me must appreciate life. He isn't closed to the possibility, but he leans towards "This is it"
For me, I HAVE to believe there is something more than this. I've lost so many people that I love that there is an anniversary nearly every month in my world. So many of them were lost to tragedy and long before their time. If I believed that they just vanished from existence, I am not sure I could live with that.
maybe that is the difference between how we believe. He has never really lost anyone close or young or to major tragedy and I have lost many. I have held a person's hand and looked in his face as the life literally left his body. That only happened a couple of years ago and it had a profound effect on me.
That moment when he breathed in and then a gray wash came over him and he just didn't breath out. Like he was holding his breath. I could see the veil of life leave. It was like a shadow passing over him quite literally. It was similar to when I was holding my pets when they passed, just on a much larger level. There was a part of him that left and I watched it leave. I may not have been able to see where it went to, but I did see it, whatever it was. It was not like a light turning out, it was like watching something leave. In my mind, since I watched something leave, that means there had to have been a something there to go, and it had to go somewhere.
It is hard for me to believe with so many people on this planet and with so much death that not everyone has experienced this. Not everyone has had the opportunity to hold a loved ones hand while their soul left their body. It really is a profound thing and for me it was the closest to evidence of the existence of something more. It was tangible, I know what I saw and it sticks with me.

Someone in my house is pregnant....

and her name is Kodo the gerbil.
Last night we caught our gerbils doing "it" There is no doubt about it. It got so graphic I thought I should put on some Barry White and light a few candles for them.
Anyhow, I am sure Kodo is knocked up now, so we will be having some gerbil babies around the end of June. I am thinking by mid July they will be ready to be placed in homes.
I will give them away for free to good homes, so put in your orders now!
I think the pet store said that they would take babies as well.

Now to find a small animal doc that will fix my little boy gerbil so he won't make any more babies! I wonder what that will cost?

drip

I drank too much coffee
drip
drip
drip
the drip buzz harshed my espresso mellow
who knew?
Now I want to air drum and stomp my feet
like an ADD office princess
it doesn't help matters that I wore red today.

I am waiting for the paper to come down for me to proof
I hope I can concentrate.
Are typos in?

Must hit the gym after work today to burn off this steam.

I wish certain sounds could be spelled out in words that expressed the true emotion of the sound.

Today I am a Muppet
small feet and all.

Tattoos of you

I have a tattoo on my heart that spells your name.
They could take it away with lasers
but it might stop beating.
They could try
they just might try
But I won't let them

I have a tattoo on my eye of your face.
They could burn it off with acid
but I might go blind
They could try
they just might try
But I won't let them

I am the one who put them there.

my new hair

here is a shot of my new hair. It isn't the clearest, but it is the best I got right now:

Posie wimmin

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Dom, Michelle and Christine

What a long weekend....

It is Sunday morning and here at Auer central it feels like I have not stopped moving since Thursday evening! I am happy to finally not have any place to rush to other than maybe my coffee maker! I feel like I lost 10 pounds this weekend just from the constant motion!

Thursday I already wrote about. Big SIFF Gala, all of my friends looking all spectacular. I should get those photos back today.

Friday afternoon I went to lunch with Jon just following their meeting with their manager where they let her go. Then later that eve there was a show where she was going to be at. I was a little nervous there might be tension, but there wasn’t. (I mean not tension between them, she doesn’t like me, so there was that usual tension there but that is nothing new.) It seems it was an amicable part as everyone seemed to be getting along just fine, so that is good.

My personal feeling is that now they will be able to move forward with someone with the expertise to take them to the next level. I am sure it is difficult to make these types of business decisions when that partner is also your friend, but I think it was the right decision. I feel for everyone involved, but did stay out of it as it is not my place to interject an opinion on the subject.

Friday evening: The benefit went great! We raised $370 for Roy’s class. Not a huge sum of money but better than a bake-sale would have been! There were some extremely talented people and one person who just would not stop playing. I won’t mention names as they all did us a favor by playing, but I will say that it is the first time I had to kick someone off the stage for playing way too long!

One of the parents who sang is married to a guy from King Crimson. I am just listening to her CD this morning and it really is beautiful. She has a very Dar Williams feel to her. Acoustic Folk feel. Her name is Trina Willard. I would love to hear her play sometime in a proper setting.

After the benefit we went over to Darius’s house to say goodbye to Ken and Matt as they were heading out the next day to their different corners of the world until July. Dom and Aden had already left in the morning Ken was on his own and looking like he really missed his little family already. Dom did call and I got a chance to speak with her. She is really a great woman. I totally fell in love with her while she was here and her little Aden. I am looking forward to taking the family to Paris this fall and spending time with them. With everything going on, it felt like I really had not had an opportunity to really talk to Ken until then, so we ended up chatting until the sun came up. It takes a while to get caught up when your friends travel so much! Matt was spinning songs on his I-Pod, he had all of this really rare and interesting stuff from years past. It was all pretty interesting.

Got to bed around 5AM and then had to get up and take Darian to a birthday party for Robb Benson’s daughter Daily. They had an 80’s dance party. The girls were having a great time. I was feeling as though a jackhammer was pounding in my brain.

Jon and I got lost driving around West Seattle, but it was good it gave us a chance to chat.

It is going to be strange to have Jon gone for so long this summer. I know it is necessary but it will still be hard. I just hope loads of people go to the shows and they have much success with it, because then it might be worth it for me loosing precious time with my husband to share him with the rest of the world. (At least that is how it feels from my perspective when faced with months apart.)

We brought the girls home from the party and watched season three of Six Feet Under. Got to bed late and woke up early and that brings us to now.

Whew! What a weekend!

They do it all the time...

It is such a Violent Femmes kind of day. I bought their self titled record probably 6 times now and to date I do not own a copy. It is always being either lost or lifted by friends. It is just one of those records. luckily today one of my co-workers has it up on his I-tunes, so I have been able to rock out to this long lost favorite while I am wading through this long Friday on little to no sleep.

We had cake for someone's birthday which is always a treat. I had a small slice that was not small enough as it is now sitting in my stomach like a bag of chocolate flavored bricks.

How do you measure your own personal successes? Would you consider yourself a successful person? How do you define yourself?

I have a desire to leave all things uncompleted. If you don't finish it, they can't judge you for it.

Who are they anyhow and why don't they just all kiss off into the air?

Last night we went to a Gala...

I love calling a party a Gala, it makes it seem like sparkles are in order!
We went to opening night of SIFF (Seattle international film festival for those of you not in the know)
We hung out in the VIP room since The Posies were playing. It was fun getting the celebrity treatment for the night. We got to walk past the velvet rope since we were on "the list" and then we were ushered straight back to the VIP area past everyone waiting in line to herd up to the main room.
I wore a black dress that had shiney black beads from head to toe and my lovely vintage white leather coat with a silver fox trim. I was feeling fully fabulous!
We ate rich chocolates and sipped champagne and watched all of the beautiful people wandering around. I got to spend time with the fabulous beauties that are Amie, Licia, Domonique, and Christine. (Don't worry, there were photos taken and they will be posted soon)
The Posies rocked the new songs and seemed to have a lot of fun doing it.
The only celebrities spotted were Miranda July and a couple of her cast-mates from her movie. We saw a chick that was almost Jennifer Connally to a freakish degree!
At the end of the night Jon told me I looked like a princess and that he was very proud to tell everyone i was his wife. That was the frosting on the cake!

All in all it was a wonderful evening!

Rock show tomorrow night:

Friday May 20- A Benefit for Roy Alexander's 4th & 5th Grade Class
Jon Auer (The Posies, Big Star) www.jonauer.com

Matt Southworth (The Capillaries) www.thecapillaries.com

Robb Benson (Dear John Letters) www.thetreemind.com

Jared Clifton (Radio Nationals) www.radionationals.com

Andy Davenhall (The Lawnmowers) www.thelawnmowers.com

Brett Phillips (Marazine Heartbeat clock) www.bretphillips.com

Summit K-12's very own Roy Alexander and more....

The Sunset Tavern - 9pm - $7 suggested donation

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Michelle Auer and Lou Barlow at the Nightlight in Bellingham, WA 3/24/05

Go buy his new record EMOH right away!