Monday, July 18, 2005

Welcome to my pity party. (I am getting on my own nerves I swear!)

It is 10 PM where Jon is right now. He is probably just arriving at the club they are playing in Paris and getting ready to play. I have been listening to Songs From the Year of our Demise all day and missing him.

I feel like all of my emotions are boiling right under the surface. I have started to tear up an embarrassing amount of times all day. I am usually a pretty tough cookie, but I think I have reached the line.

My emotional cup runneth over.

I am hoping to work out extra hard at the gym today. Sometimes it helps to physically exhaust myself to the point where the emotional exhaustion doesn't matter so much.

So much has changed, another friend is gone, and I am a million miles away from the one person who's hugs always make me feel safe from it all.

Days like this make it hard not to feel completely tiny and insignificant.

2 comments:

Suzy Mills said...

Sorry to hear your bad news. It's pretty bad timing too.

I know it's not the same, but please accept a cyber-hug from me.
You're not alone. :-)
Suzy
x

Moz said...

It's tough to go a couple of days without your "other". I can't imagine looking at weeks. Sorry about your friend.

 

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