Friday, December 16, 2005

We will miss you Leo!

John Spencer, who played a tough and dedicated politico on "The West Wing", died of a heart attack today. He was 58.

The White House will never be the same. :-(

Letters to the universe...

I swear to you, I was having the worlds crappiest month and then I started my 100 things blog.
The day after I posted the first part of the list, the sky opened and wonderful things are just falling into my lap! Every turn there is another really amazing thing, and they are all things somehow connected to my list.

Had I known it would have this effect I would have written letters to the universe a long time ago!

Dear Universe-
I want to have an amazing magical weekend. Please? Pretty please?

Thursday, December 15, 2005

Guess what I have in my hot little hand right now?

If you guessed:
Jon’s brand new record Songs from the Year of Our Demise,
you win!

I am so excited! It is all shrink wrapped and all fancy like. I must admit there were days where I wondered if I would ever see the day. But here it is! I have only been authorized to give a copy to 2 people since they are part of the mortal choir on 6 feet under. The rest of you have to wait. Sorry.

I am listening to it right now. It is perfect.

Snoopy Dances all around!

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

It only encouraged them.

The smoking ban didn't stop anyone. It isn't like they have smoking police. For the record, I have gone to my favorite neighborhood dive bar twice now since then; once on Saturday and once last night. Both times people were still smoking. What changed? There is now a HUGE No Smoking sign pinned to the front door.

Monday, December 12, 2005

She is lovely and amazing.

I had trouble getting to sleep last night. It probably had something to do with the really long nap I took in the middle of the afternoon. Darian and I watched Born into Brothels and it drained me so much emotionally I just passed out.
I really liked it. I found it to be extremely well done and aside from some swearing in subtitles I don't think there is anything wrong with letting your young adult watch it. It actually opened up some really interesting discussion between Darian and I. She was really moved by the kids stories and their photos. She asked me if this movie was made a long time ago. I asked her why she thought that. She said, "Because if the world saw this movie and saw what these kids had to deal with don't you think they would fix it by now and get them help?"
I wish it were that simple my love.

That is the part I hate about seeing her grow up. I get to witness first hand the world chipping away at her. I get to see the disappointment in her eyes when she realizes that we don't live in a world that is fair or kind to everyone, even children. I know as a parent I have to slowly introduce her to these realities when at the same time every part of me wants to protect her from it all.

She is the biggest reason I keep this blog. It is the adult version of her who I am writing to when I write this. She doesn't know about it now, but I figure someday she might be interested to read the things I pondered the most when I was younger. I always wished my parents had kept some sort of journals. It would have helped me understand them better when I was older.

She is so much smarter than I was at her age and that makes me both proud and scares the hell out of me. She is not only beautiful but she is fearless and confident. There is a part of me that is always waiting for the other shoe to drop.

I watched her sleeping last night for at least an hour. She still sleeps with the same look on her face as she did the day I brought her home from the hospital. She still laughs in her sleep. She still loves me the most. I hope that never goes away.

I already hate the boy who will break her heart someday. She has not met him yet, but he is out there looming on the horizon, just waiting. I hope the world never breaks her spirit.

Sunday, December 11, 2005

All the girls in my bed these days…

Had another sleepover last night, this one was of the blonde Amie variety. We could not think of any shows to go to. Her plans to get her boogie on fell through. So we decided to make it a movie night.
She just got the Buffy box set and there were a handful of episodes I have not seen yet. I'm also trying to take full advantage of the few free days I have left before Jon comes home. Having boys in the house puts a serious damper on sleepovers!

Of course the first thing we did was fast forward to the first Spike and Buffy hook up, which was smokin' hawt! Then we just watched all of the 'Willow gone crazy' episodes that I missed. I think they may have been some of the best Buffy’s, I can’t believe I'm just seeing them now!

After that we decided to crawl into bed and watch what we both feared was going to be the worst movie ever that we rented on a whim and a prayer. I blame Amie, she blames me, I think we should just blame Jon since his name is on the account.

Quotes from this craptastic movie Now and Forever:
“I was wrenched from her arms by the Holocaust of our reality.”
“I don’t want my death to be like some cheesy movie of the week.”

I think you get the idea. Lifetime would have rejected this one! I wanted to wash my minds eye after seeing this. At least Amie was there to laugh with me and didn’t mind my heavy handed fast forward button pushing.

It just hit me today that Jon will REALLY be home in a week. Albeit for a very short period of time, but he will be home. He will actually be in the apartment with all of his boy things, habits, opinions and stuff. No more girl dormitory living for us. Don’t get me wrong, I miss the man like crazy. He is the love of my life and as necessary as Oxygen to me, but I have to admit following these long stretches things are always a little weird for the first few days. When I finally get used to him being back home, he is gone again. It is such a rollercoaster and really messes with my psyche more than I like to admit to people, but I am pretty sure I am not fooling anyone anyway.

His solo record is all done and printed and set to come out in March. I am totally looking forward to watching that happen for him. I’m so proud of him and what he made there. It is one of the most beautiful things I have heard in years, if not ever. It is so complete and emotional. I think it is the best stuff he has ever been a part of, ever.

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