Thursday, December 29, 2005

My year end list.

Are there really only a few days left of 2005? I find it so hard to believe.

This year there was a very strong focus on school and my daughter and her friends. I think most of my focus and energy was spent on that.

2005 was the first year to bring big changes and peer group issues to the table. I am aware that it is the first step in many years to come of growing pains and challenges. So far I count myself very lucky that my daughter seems to have her head square on her shoulders and the worst problems we have had with behavior is that she likes to leave her $300 toys laying on the couch.
It could most certainly be worst, but I hope it never is. This is the first year where I realized that several of my younger friends are actually closer to my daughters age than they are to mine. I find that amusing.

I reached my first anniversary at work and as a married couple.
I reached the ten year anniversary of knowing the person I am married to.
Jon was on the road for 5 months and home for 12 days during that five months in 2005.
I got to know Jeannine (aka Nenu) better when she came back from New York and moved in with me for a little while, she is now one of the most important people in my life.
I volunteered at a shelter.
My focus changed to my daughter's future and less on my own.
I went to New York and fell in love with the city again.
I went to Boston for the first time and almost got killed by a cab driver. (At least that is how I will tell the story for the rest of my life)
I went to far too many rock shows. They are all sort of a wonderful blur in my memories.
I had surgery.
I lost someone that I loved to tragedy.
A child that I love as much as my own broke my heart when she grew up too fast.
My daughter changed schools.
I made a few new friends that I know will be very important to me in the future.
I reconnected with one of my oldest and dearest friends and he came to visit me and introduced me to the love of his life.
I went to Idaho and discovered I am an alien to them.
I let my hair grow out enough to realize I will never let my natural color grow out again since it has turned on me. (I thought we had a deal?!?!)
I finally found peace with some of my ghosts.
I met 'single Amie' as apposed to 'in a relationship Amie' and watched her blossom.
I watched way too much bad television.
There have been more than 400 movies rented on my video account.
I met one of my heros and found out he was only human.
I got a little closer to knowing what I want to be when I grow up.
I changed.

more lists:

List of movies I have to see in the next few weeks:

1- Memoirs of a Geisha (Love the book, can't wait to see the movie)
2- Harry Potter (Still have not read the books, had trouble with all of the hype)
3- Match point (Love Woody Allen even though he has been disappointing me a lot lately)
4- King Kong (I heard if it didn't make me cry I didn't have a heart, must go and see if I have a heart)
5- Tristan and Isolde (Saw the trailer and got all giddy. My favorite guilty pleasure style movie since I was a little girl obsessed with the Camelot story.)

Wednesday, December 28, 2005


I went to the f-ing dentist this afternoon and now I feel like someone punched me in the mouth. I am having a crown replaced. It doesn't sound like it would be painful, but it is. They really do a number on your gums when they are making the impressions and stuff.

At least with the new crown I will have a whiter and brighter smile. I ruined the last one drinking coffee and red wine. I just have to use more straws and be more careful, because it isn't cheap getting these things replaced.

Stupid Alaska with it's stupid non-fluoridated country water.

I need someone to create a Pepsi clear version of my favorite espresso drink. Could someone get on that?


for some reason when I post photos they make the top of my blog vanish. I need to figure out why this is happening. I tried changing the format twice now, but that didn't work. grrrrr.

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Life in pictures. (For the one who keeps running)

I am both the first and the last word.

Not new
but reinvented,
and recovered.

You'll see soon enough.

I didn't ask to be the voice of reality
in your 'Once Upon a Time' world.

If those looks were voices they would have teeth.

-and now she runs and how she runs-

No matter how you frame it
you can't save it

It is a fluid thing.

And something about pain (For the one who is looking for answers)

I want to swallow your pain,
eat it up and watch it develop into something original.
A revealing embrace.
Don't trust your eyes, they are tricksters.
See these maps on my wrists as I hold them out to you.
Hear my heart as it pushes the blood through these veins.
No pain is unique
Truth lies in perception
and to what degree you allow yourself to feel.
Will you embrace it?
Will you beat it?
Will you let it take over?
Pain is not like breathing.
It's as much of a choice as you allow it to be.

It's over and we survived to tell the tale...

Another three hundred and fifty something days before we have to do it all over again. Next year I am going to try and find a way to do it somewhere tropical or maybe somewhere snowy. Wouldn't that be nice?

The little one loved her holiday, she got everything on her wish list. One of the benefits of being the only grandchild in my family. She is one happy camper right now.

Jon's mom gave us the one thing I have wanted for a very long time; a really nice digital camera! I'm in love with it! I have already taken like a million photos.

I got a pair of pretty diamond earrings and the new Long Winters CD that I didn't even know existed. I have not really had a chance to listen to it yet, so I'll post about it later. I also got a Ladro coffee card, which is probably one of the smartest gifts for me since I spend at least 10% of my paychecks going there every morning before work and on the weekends.

I gave Jon a bunch of DVD's, books and CD's. You know, the usual. Oh and a Pez dispenser set that featured all of the Star Wars Characters. He seemed pleased.

I'm glad it is over. Now we can get on with our lives.

Monday, December 26, 2005

Poor Nenu...

So Christmas went really well. It was very low key and relaxed just like I hoped it would be. Amie and Jeannine stopped by last night and hung out for a few hours. We chatted and watched some Triumph. Darian kept daring Jeannine to eat sardine flavored Jelly Beans, and she DID! Haha! I think that may be what lead to this morning’s mishap.

Turns out she went home last night feeling fine, but woke up about 3AM throwing up. She said she threw up like 11 times and starting feeling really horrible so she decided to go to the doctor.

I got the 7AM “I’m at the hospital” call which just about gave me a heart attack until I woke up enough to understand that it was flu related and she just needed some anti-nausea meds, fluids, rest and someone to drive her home.
I caught a cab over to the hospital (She had her car with her) and found a very sleepy and sad Nenu in bed all hooked up to an IV. She didn’t feel good at all.

She still had a while to go that she had to be there. I assessed the damage so we could come up with a plan of action for the day. I told her I would take her home to my place. She mentioned she got sick in the car on the way there as well, so I borrowed some gloves and wipes from the hospital and went and cleaned out the car. Then we waited for her IV to be all finished and the nurse gave me some anti-nausea pills for her and sent her home with me. The nurse said she has a really bad flu bug and needs lots of sleep and fluids and stuff, she should be fine in a couple of days. Poor kiddo. :(

The question is: What do you feed a vegetarian who is sick? I would usually do Jell-o and chicken broth, but veggies can’t eat either of those things. I got a can of Veggie broth, which doesn’t seem that appetizing to me, but maybe she will like it? I also grabbed popsicles and saltines. I wish they made a vegetarian Chicken and Stars soup (Best sick food ever!). Maybe I will try the Rainbow grocery next door; they seem to have lots of vegan type stuff there.

Hope nobody else gets it. It seems pretty icky.

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