Wednesday, July 27, 2005

What's been going on?

Well let me see..

My husband is traveling, so my daughter and I have been spending loads of time being girly and doing girly stuff like Shopping, hanging out and gossiping. It has been a lot of fun. I feel like it is such an important time in her life, and we have been given this great gift of having a really solid relationship. It has been great. We do miss Jon quite a bit though. When we do things like go shopping or go out to eat we always miss him. It is like we forgot to bring him along. In ways I am learning that missing someone is quite similar to mourning them. The first few days of it gave me a panicky feeling because I have dealt with so much loss, but this time I know the lost person is coming home to me again.

Something to do with summer and pheromones or something has caused all of the crazies to find me highly attractive. Earlier this week I had a pimp tell me I was gorgeous and then give me his whole line of yadda yadda before I could escape. I thought he was going to offer me a job!
And then today on the way back from my doctor I was followed down the street by a group of guys going on and on about my hair, my shoes, my booty. They were making a lot of racket and whistling. I suddenly started seeing images from A Clockwork Orange. It made me laugh and a little bit afraid. Listen guys, if you find a girl attractive, following her down the street and yelling at her is not a way to get good attention. However, it is a good way to get pepper sprayed.

Speaking of the doctor, I got my clean bill of health today. I had some drama over the last few months which I was keeping under my hat just because I wanted to suss it all out before I went public with it. I remember when I was a kid and got the Chicken Pox, I didn't feel sick until somebody told me I was. I guess I was afraid the same thing would happen here if I went and told everyone what was going on. So I just went on business as usual until it was all over.
Basically I had a big old chunk of cells removed that were precancerous. There was a minor surgery involved just before our anniversary and a helluva a lot of doctors appointments and testing. I got the pathology results today and the doctor told me that had I gone to see her any later I would have full blown Cancer and I was REALLY lucky I went when I did. What an eye opener that was! She said I have to come in every few months to be checked on, but she said that there is a 95% chance I caught it in time and am "cured".
Funny enough, the only reason I went when I did was to break in my new insurance for my new job, so in essence my job saved my life. How ironic!
So having said that, I would like to tell all of you to go to your regular doctors appointments and get your check ups, don't wait until you are sick because if you do, it may be too late.
Now I am putting it all behind me.
All of this really made me take a long look at my life, and I have to say, I am OK with it. Life is good and I am a very lucky girl.

In happier news, I turn 31 next Thursday! What happened to the last year? It all went so fast! I am really proud of the last year and how it turned out, so I don't have any regrets. I can only say it was one of the more eventful years of my life!
I walk away from it older and wiser, but mostly older.

That is all for now. Catch you on the flipside!


me, myself and I said...

You have my utmost sympathies. I've been through it too. The tests, the unpleasant moments staring at the ceiling trying not to think about what's going on 'down below', the hospital appointments, more tests. It makes me shudder just thinking about it. It's suprisingly common, my sister had the same thing. You're absolutely right, it's SO important to go for your regular checkups. Yes, it's unpleasant, but you have to do it.
I'm really glad you're o.k.


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